Highs and Lows

Continuously turning in circles, my head is spinning, losing focus on everything that matters and just thinking of one thing. Stress is seeping into every bone and pore of my body, overwhelming the senses. Causing my heart to ache in pain, yearn for peace and wonder what and where my future will be.

Through it all, I pray, I plead, I beg and I bargain but in the end all of the pleading, begging and bargaining will not help, the only place I can find my peace is through prayer and even that struggles to tame my senses.

Thoughts fly through my mind so quickly that they appear unreal and just a figmit of my imagination. If I could go back in time? Would I do things differently? I made those choices, I own those choices and I am those choices. Why look back?

The begging, pleading crazy woman becomes the angry, frustrated and strong woman that I hide within. Desperation turns to hope, nightmares turn to dreams and I know within my heart that God always provides. Whether it be for my emotional well being, my health, my family or strength, God is their to listen and to provide strength. Therefore I will endure, I will hope, pray and pray some more that God's will is done. Will it be my choice, I pray that it will but I will never dream to know what the future may bring and thus I must take it one small step at a time.

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